I'm continually astonished at how much I love Los Angeles and grow to even more with every passing day.
It feels like home in a way that few other places do (Baltimore & Hamilton). You're probably thinking with my love of movies, music, entertainment it's not that strange but it's really other things. I'm seriously disinterested in the celebrity business & media whores are one of my least favourite things about the city.
It's the sun & the history & the buildings & the art & the food & the people. It's things you could only learn by coming here with an open mind and an open heart. It is so much more than what you think.
It's gotten to my bones & my brain & my writing & all I create. I hope to continue to show & share that love in all I do. I can't imagine living anywhere else. That may change & I certainly still do love to travel but this feels like a home. I lived in Chicago for 11 years & did not feel like my skin fit for one single day.
I'll be honest. It's pretty dire at the moment. My absolute least favourite part is how tough it is to find work of any sort. If my resume said I was a 25 year old actress wannabe who'll call in twice a week for auditions I'd probably stand a better chance.
But I remain determined. There's a fairly good chance I'll be sleeping under that Hollywood sign by the weekend. You might think I'm crazy or stubborn or whatever and you may be right. But it's time to look everyone square in the face & remind them they're supposed to love me for who I am. And this is it. I've spent most of my life worrying about other people being happy & giving up on things to make that so.
It's a tough line & I will continue to do my best to never be selfish. I hope this doesn't sound like I am. But I have to make choices that keep me sane and moving forward.
This is that choice.
Thanks for listening.
